For me!

I flew to Tucson on Friday the 13th. It was my lucky day. I have always (as a grown up anyway) said that Friday the 13th is my lucky day. If you wake up saying it's going to be a bad luck day, it will be.

I got to fly on two airplanes, by myself. It was awesome. I'd never done that before. I got to call the hotel and have them send a shuttle for me. That was awesome too!

I checked myself into the hotel, again something new.

Yep, I'm Wonder Woman.

Not afraid of adventure.

There was dinner with my friend that night, breakfast and a most exciting trip to a living museum the next day. Dinner with more people Saturday night. Back on an airplane on Sunday to get home. By myself. Shuttle from the airport to the car lot where I parked.

I didn't need anyone's help to get home, no airport ride (although some people had offered).

It felt like the most grown up thing I had ever done in my life. I didn't ask anyone's permission to make this trip (other than asking my friend if it'd be ok for me to show up...).

In the days that followed my trip, people at work began commenting that I seemed so much better.

I was.

I had taken control.

It was my life and I AM Wonder Woman.

Not long after I got back my neighbor and I had another huge fight. He told me there would be no more working projects done in my home until I got therapy because I was obviously losing my mind. I tried to tell him that for once I wasn't losing my mind. I tried to explain that I was Wonder Woman, not married woman who gives in to whatever because it creates the least amount of tension. Not the person who only pleases others and tells herself to get over whatever she might have hoped/dreamed/wanted.

I didn't lose my spouse to be taken over by someone who only wants me to do what they want me to do and for me to THINK it's my idea. I want to implement my ideas. I want to do the things I want to do.

He was right about work stopping on my house. It hasn't started back yet. I don't know how to fix the things that are taken apart. But whatever is supposed to happen will. I am making it. I am doing fun things and therapy.

I went to therapy the very week after he threw in the towel about my household projects, but I refused to be the one who caved in and called/texted first. He contacted me just a couple of weeks ago. It's a long story but I don't think we are friends anymore. I don't need users in my life like that. I don't have the energy for them.

That's not true, I just don't have it in me to give them my energy anymore.

Wonder Woman would never do that :)